WINDOW AT THE EDGE OF TIME
And it is the wind. The wind that
blows furiously and makes the windows creaking and throbbing in a senseless
dialect.
And it is true that I tried. I tried
every possible way to write the truth. And it’s also true, that I failed once
more.
The ink started pouring. It was
pouring uncontrollably from the slashed veins of my page, into black creeks,
forming small pools on the floor, dark
enough to look inside them and see what the future held. But I don’t care. I
have always liked memories.
Indeed, I have memories I reminisce
at times, evidence that I once existed too. At least the photos can prove that,
although now faded like me.
Sitting back staring at them, every
single one has its own preserving little story. And then I give up on them.
I throw them around, just like I
threw away all the years.
And other times, I am sitting in
front of my creations just like a kid, a crazy inventor, and admire the
magnificence of the perfect failure.
Just like that, I loose myself inside
this crazy celebration of this irrevocable silence.
And
I get lost from this internal
monologue that keeps being reproduced out of control, inside the guts of this place that grows
constantly in a suffocating way all around me.
Until such time, I walk away from everything and approach the
window, which in turn starts telling me its own little story.
In the beginning it starts talking
about the city which spreads all around, the big roads,
the public buildings, the colourful flags that are waving proud in the
balconies, its big imposing monuments, and how over there, at the edge of
town, there is a lake, silent with its stunning azure
colour.
It talks about the tinny old boats
and the fishermen, the shabby old timber huts at the banks of the lake, the
cane that bows in the wind, and the kids running barefoot on the piers.
And then how the plains start rolling
down the valley, with the farmers in the fields, the sheep and further away the
cows.
In the background the tree stands
tall and haughty, with the flowers beneath it.
Along side of it, a little girl with her hollow hands overflowing a sea,
where the milky moon hanging in the afternoon sky, is floating out in the open, and while the wind
blows over to the shore, it washes it out,
and then takes it all back into the open sea.
And it’s true that I tried. I tried every possible way to write the
truth. And once more I failed.
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